Peaceful.. Happy 33 Weeks!

Today was a much better experience with the kids.. thank the Lord! They are looking so much better without the nasal canulas and their faces are filling out now. I love how sweet their faces look .. so much easier to deal with.. less wires and more like my children. It is getting harder and harder for me to leave them each day. I was telling them that it was time for momma to leave and it brought me to tears. Just knowing that I have to leave them somewhere else every day makes me crazy. It's not right to not be with your kids, to not hold them and rock them to sleep each night. I am so grateful for what we have been blessed with, an NICU that can keep them going and I know it is best for them to be there. I will just never get used to this. The rollercoaster continues and although I am ok, I am more than a little overwhelmed.

On a lighter note, they were such good snugglers and I think my heart grew ten fold today. I fall more in love with them every day and I can't wait to get them to the next stage.. feeding! They had desats today but they were mainly associated with reflux and knowing that makes me more calm. One step at a time..

Updates
Austin
He is still on 38ML feedings and weighed in today at 2030 grams which is 4 lbs. 7.5 oz.! Go Austin Go!

Grace
She has been increased to 36ML feedings and weighed in at 1835 grams, which is 4 pounds!!! Woo Hoo!!!!

My mom is leaving tomorrow and I am a little panicked about that but am so eternally grateful for her selflessness, her calmness and unending support. She will be back later and I really look forward to that being when they are home. She has made an appearance in each stage of this journey - helping me cope.. and the final stage is coming in just a few short weeks so that makes me feel like our team is moving towards the finish line.

I have attached some black and white photos from yesterday.. hope you like. :)