Today was my first day back at work in almost 6 months and I can't help but feel like I am in the twilight zone. SO much has happened since my last day there (Dec. 15th, 2011) and I am not the same person. I left the twins and Tommy this morning with a really heavy heart and I know with time, I will get used to it. It just feels surreal in every sense of that word. What I am reminded of is that time heals all wounds, and that I can truly move on now.

The kids are amazing as usual, getting bigger and cooing up a storm. Their smiles can light up a room and I can't wait til they can laugh. They are both very strong and can hold up their heads really well. They are tracking and playing with toys you put in front of them. I am really enjoying the time that Tom and I have at night before bed. We each get a baby and just snuggle for a few hours watching TV. It is so comforting to us all and I can't help but think that pretty soon, they will be sitting up in our bed which will be so fun.

There is a reunion for the NICU on the 20th of this month and that feels really strange. We aren't sure if we are going to go yet. I am not sure I am ready to go back there to be honest. The last time was when we took Grace home and I am scared it will bring back all kinds of emotions. .. maybe those are emotions we need to face in order to truly move forward. Who knows.. we will figure it out. We also need to figure out what we are going to do to give back to them. So many of the couples donate time or items for the new parents and we need to think of something special.

I am not sure how much the kids weigh right now but I would guess around 12-13 lbs. They are growing out of their 0-3 month clothes so I would assume they are about 1-2 pounds away from catching up with the regular kids their age. Gracie is a little butterball and Austin looks like a frog with a skinny little waist but a fat tummy. They are still so cute and changing each day. I can't keep up!!

I will update with actual numbers when I get them but for now, they are happy and healthy!!

Much love,
Erica and Tom